Friday, January 28, 2011

Dear Brain of Mine,

You torture me with such wondrous dreams. I feel so happy dreaming yet when I wake up from my slumber, I'm so sad. I know none of it will come true, yet my brain wishes for it to. Hence why you slam these amazing dreams in to my head through the middle of the night.

How I love my dreams, yet hate them at the same time. It puts me in a sad mood for the day, yet wonderful mood at night. How do I stop this roller coaster of emotions? How can I stop that one person, that dream person of mine from invading my space delusional space?

Please brain, stop thinking about J.A.T.

Thank you and Love you,
Your owner.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Day 16: Ready 4 School

Day 16 of 365.

Oh my gawsh, such a large drawing. And it was just a doodle.
I didn't think it would come out this large. Sorry.

So, I start college tomorrow. I'm excited yet scared. Wish my luck. C:
Technically since it's past midnight, I start college today.

Monday, January 17, 2011

2011 Sexy Bunny

Happy 2011.
Year of the Rabbit.

This is a drawing I'd been working on for the past couple weeks.
I got tired of it so I wanted to finish it as fast as I could, so I didn't clean it up much.
Sorry for the horribleness.

Day 15: Cuddle Me Bunny

Day 15 of 365.

Sorry I haven't posted any drawings in a long time.
I've been dealing with problems involving friends, going through preparations involving college, and just me being plain lazy.
Here's a drawing I did for 2011 because it's the year of the rabbit.

Speaking of stuff involving that, have you heard about the new Astrological sign?
Ophiuchus is what it's called. The Snake Bearer I think it roughly translates to.
Look it up, it's quite interesting. This is only in effect for those who are born after the year 2009, thankfully.
I looked at the new days and thought, "I went from a Libra to a Virgo? My life has been a lie. Nooooo..."

Monday, January 10, 2011

Dear Friend of Mine,

I love you bunches because I've known you for several years now, but there are times when I want to punch the snot out of you. I know it's a female thing to want to look pretty, but must I look nice ALL the time? Even in my own household?
I can understand looking nice for a certain occasion but looking nice when I'm sitting there on the couch pigging out watching movies? Seriously?
Also, just because you don't like some of my clothing doesn't mean you can threaten to burn it. I don't always like everything you wear, do, or say. It doesn't mean I go around threatening to burn it, does it?

Even through all this questioning our friendship, I still love you and want to stay friends with you. Though I would like it if you minded your own business sometimes and didn't bad mouth my horrible yet comfy fashion sense.

Your friend.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Waves Away

I have a friend. A friend of mine who knows me probably the best out of everyone I know. He's of the male variety and he's probably the image of what I would consider my ideal guys I've wanted to date? Well, as ideal as I'll ever get probably. Yet, there's something missing. That extra feeling past friendship where you're compelled to pursue to a further relationship with a person past friendship. He's so similar to my ideal man yet, I don't want to date him? I've been thinking to myself, "What's wrong with me? Here's the man you've been wanting, yet you don't like him?" Could it be that I'm blocking that extra feeling out of my mind. My heart's screaming yet my mind might not be listening? Could that be what's happening? I'm not really sure, but it frustrates me. I've been on this subject in my mind for a while now. At least the past couple weeks since I was on the conversation with another friend about unblocking myself from the social world and learning to love.

I want to love, yet I push people away it's like trying to fight that large wave coming at you in the ocean. Trying your best not to drown in the overwhelming water that's pushing you away from the one you're trying to get to.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Family member that annoys you?

Do you have that one family member that gets on your nerves? You feel the flames in your soul spark when you have conversations with them sometimes?

Well I have my father who does that to me. It's not all the time this happens of course. But there are those times where I just want to scream until my lungs pop out of my throat. We get in to arguments every once in a while where it ends in screaming, cursing, and of course the natural myself punching a wall. I can't help it sometimes, when I get really worked up and pissed off, I have to release my energy somehow, which it's with punching a wall, any wall near me. Gives me the idea I have anger problems sometimes.
Today's topic of argument was about college. I haven't signed up for college for this semester yet and it's really cutting it close to the deadline. Since there's not much longer until the semester starts up. My dad's explaining how I need to look online at classes and what time they are and what classes they are, but I just don't want to worry about that and go down there and get everything done down there. Doing what he says will mean nothing to me really. At this rate I'll be sitting in my house for another 3-4 months doing nothing. Then I'd need to search for a job, that I probably won't find anywhere around here.

Live is tough. And I need to suck it up and get out there. I can't turn in to a hermit. No matter what, I can't....

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year!!

Hello and Happy New Year.
It's 2011 now. A new year to have loves, laughs, and happiness. I hope you all have a great new year. C:

This Work in Progress is going to be my New Year drawing. Since it's the year of the rabbit, she's going to be a sexy rabbit. But to continue with her, I need your help. I give you all the chance to vote for either the hair style 1 or 2.
Vote either by commenting or in the poll to the left.

Please and thank you!